OK, I haven’t written in this thing for a bazillion years but I’ve been in Costa Rica for 164 days and I’ve lost 25 lbs. My total weight loss from my heaviest is 64 lbs! I have about 8 lbs to go before I reach my “ultimate” goal weight.
Kind of the best thing ever.
I’m super happy with so many things and realizing how different my health, body, appearance, and attitude are from last July just makes me glow.
Sometimes it scares me how much I love Costa Rica.
Don’t get me wrong. I knew I’d like it. I’d only heard good things about Costa Rica before leaving and the pictures I browsed were beautiful. I imagined it as a tropical, low key, fruit swinging from the branches kind of place.
It’s so much more. The diversity of such a small country is stunning and the universal sense of tranquility is inescapable.
When I went to visit AnneMarie a few weeks ago in Turrialba, I made an off the cuff statement about how much I loved Costa Rica. Something like, “I don’t know if I’ll ever leave Costa Rica.” And AnneMarie said, “I don’t think you will!”
Don’t worry. I’m coming back. Eventually.
But it’s true—Costa Rica has been so good for me. At the risk of being a total cliche, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. There are worries, questions and insecurities as always but I feel so grateful.
It’s funny I hadn’t been wanting for home until yesterday. Yes, I’ve been “homesick.” I’ve missed my family like no other. I’ve been uncomfortable and confused. But I hadn’t missed all the American things that were my life just 80 days ago.
Today and yesterday, though, I do. I miss driving in my little car and listening to the radio on high. I miss stopping in the grocery when I had a craving for a certain something on whim. I miss my mom’s cooking. I miss my dogs’ chorus of howls and barks when the ambulance roars by our fence. I miss watching television shows in a language and with a plot I can understand. I miss hitting up Target with my mom. I miss the kennel at the Germantown Animal Shelter…how quiet it’d become once the dogs knew you. I miss driving downtown with my sister just because. I miss how easy it is to get this, or do that or to just change your plans.
I’m thankful for what I miss. There’s so much good to love in two very important places in the world and in my heart.
1. I woke up at 9 am, pretty darn late for Costa Rica life. Felt weird and off for the rest of the day.
2. I used up a pen that I’ve only had a week. Why? Because I write out all my lesson plans!
3. I walked 30 minutes of the 45 minute walk to Frailles until some people took pity on the Gringa sweltering the heat and gave me a lift (I seriously must look pathetic because I’ve yet to make the trip there and back solely by foot).
4. I forgot to wear sunscreen. I am now working a farmer’s tan.
5. I tried to buy an internet chip for my phone. Complete failure of spanish communication and walked to melt into the floor out of embarrassment.
6. I made buddies with the one of the cute guys at the market.
7. I said “hola” when I meant to say “gracias” because I was distracted thinking about the cute guy.
8. I finished yet another book.
9. I realized that a lot of people in La Violeta and Frailles know who I am and I have no idea who they are.
10. WE HAVE WIRELESS ON THE MOUNTAIN. So, maybe it was good I couldn’t get the internet chip after all.
I’m down 3 jean sizes! YAY! I totally feel like bragging because I have worked hard. There have been a lot of ups and downs. I’m not done yet. Another 15 lbs is my goal and hopefully 5 more after than to tone up. I will lose another size so I can be at a good weight for my height and build.
Getting new jeans definitely motivates me. The last pounds are definitely the hardest to lose. My weight loss has slowed down and I am trying to shake things up exercise wise. Hopefully hiking and traveling in Costa Rica will be a boost!
Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? By Mindy Kaling
A handful of bad experiences when I was small have made me a confirmed nonathlete. In psychology (okay, Twilight) they teach you about the notion of imprinting, and I think it applies here. I reverse-imprinted with athleticism. Ours is the great non-love story of my life.
I leave for Costa Rica in 12 DAYS! Still trying to hit my weight goal for Jan 8th. I should get close though Christmas did not help.
It’s kind of amazing to me that the people who are important in my life (besides my family, of course) has changed so much since the past year or two. I’ve made much stronger connections with all sorts of people in my community that I wouldn’t have expected. At the same time, I’ve seen people become distant and honestly, I refuse to reach out to people over and over again. Maybe that’s harsh or selfish of me but you can’t ignore someone who months and expect a friendship. Two way street. Sorry.
I really want to come to this adventure as healthy and prepared as possible. I want to invest my time and energy into what and who matters. I don’t want to share this adventure with flighty people or people who bring me down. I feel like being selfish and keeping the fun for myself.
So sore today. Even the bones in my feet hurt. Um, why? All I did was 30DS Level 3 and walk a lot. I think now that I’m getting better at Level 3 and can really sustain myself the entire work out, the soreness has gone up, up, up!
Needless to say I didn’t do 30 Day Shred today. I walked a lot of dogs at the shelter. Ready for tomorrow…
The “fitspo” tag on Tumblr is just…disappointing at times. Pictures of tiny girls with sprayed on abs and faux fitness gear licking lollipops on a treadmill do not inspire me. “Sexy” shots of women with full on makeup lifting weights do not inspire me. Real people inspire me. People who fight their demons, fall down and screw up then fight again inspire me.
Splurge night tonight. I cooked and made Apple & Tomato Soup (don’t knock it till you try it, seriously) and Twice as Good Grilled Cheese. So good! Definitely not healthy but at least it was homemade and wholesome. Then I had Neapolitan ice cream. Whoops. I really enjoyed my evening, which is what matters. I know I didn’t do any big time damage.
No Jillian Michaels today…way too sore. Yikes. I did go on an hour long walk up and down some hilly areas. Tomorrow I’m going to a Christmas party. I plan on having most of my calories before I leave (the party is in the evening) and doing level 3 of 30 Day Shred.
Some pictures from cooking:
Peeling apples. Looking kind of derpy.
Honey crisp apples. My favorite!
By the tree. Skin almost back to normal except for my eyebrow which my derm BURNED. WTF lady.
Well, this kind of sucks. I finally fit into my old pencil skirt and I notice the slit is ruined. I guess the threading came out and now it’s an obnoxious full of gap. No, thank you. Oh well, it fairly cheap anyway but had sentimental value.
Tried on my jeans again. They are fitting better. I still need to lose 5 lbs before I can wear them out comfortably. I’m determined to wear them in Costa Rica. I’m leave in 23 days so I need to make a calorie deficit of 760 a day. If I up my walking and stay on task, I think I can do this.
My skin looks SO much better! I’m only a little pink (looks like a light sunburn) and have stopped peeling everywhere except right under my chin. The blotchiness has faded. Only where I am peeling do I see a difference in skin color, which is normal. I’ve read it can take a few months for the pinkness to subside but I don’t really care. By day 14, I should be pretty even.
The best part is my scars have really reduced. I can still see the ones by my temples but they are so slight. The peel FINALLY killed those cystic pimples by my jawline that would NOT go away. I am so happy because I believe without the peel, they would have eventually scarred my severely. My skin is very even and my pores reduced.
I would do it again and I might again in a year or so. However, I would have to receive some kind of numbing cream before hand or do a weaker peel (AHA). If you are thinking about doing a TCA peel, do your research and do NOT do it at home. Realize what they can and can’t do, the possible complications and recovery involved.
I’ll be living in Costa Rica starting January 8th! Teaching ESL, living with a host family, learning Spanish, traveling Central America…it’s all happening. If you’re interested in traveling, teaching or Costa Rica, check out my blog. I’ll be maintaining this tumblr as well for inspiration/health/personal posts.